THE LONELY SMILE

Every morning I woke up to see her,

from the day she born

She smiles at me and she talks to me when 

I am lonely...

She is different, different from all

She  taught me that I'm not alone when everyone left me

But

Yesterday, when I saw her, a strange pain hit me...

She is tired and pale struggling to keep that enthral smile,

giving hopes to the unfortunates...

And today ,when I ran to see her 

She is gone , leaving the eternal loneliness....

MY STRUGGLES WITH PCOD

 TWO EASY AND EFFECTIVE NATURAL WAY TO CONTROL PCOS- POLYCYSTIC OVARIAN SYNDROME

In 2015 I was told that I had 7 to 8 Polyps. Though I already knew that I had PCOS ,I was still shocked with that number because, I thought it as a sister of cancer. So I decided I need to find a solution.

 The most discussed factor of PCOD is ,it affects the fertility. But there are some less discussed problems attached  to it, which are much more serious. Like mental stress, mood swings, depressions due to hormonal imbalance and the so called physical imperfections like excessive hair growth, acne.

I was (actually I am)one of them who was seriously affected by it. The periods were irregular from starting or you can say I never  had it for 6 months and then for 2 months it will be normal. It was like on and off. My mother or any of my cousins  or female  relative didn't had any idea about these things actually they just thought it will be fine when I grow up.

 During school times, I was really concerned because I had acne problem, excessive hair growth. Why it affected me  the most was because I was a dark(or brown) skinned, a south Indian who had her schooling in North India where we had fair skinned girls. So now  I was a dark skinned girl , with acne filled face and lots and lots of hair and not too good in academics too. So I was a failure in every way, according to me  and I was a stressed teenager.

I came to know about my condition when I was in 12th grade because throughout that time I went to only 2 doctors  and both of them never used the term 'THE PCOD OR WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME'. They just said I am stressed that is why its happening to me. So almost half of  my life  I searched for the things that can cure my acne and the excessive hair growth.

Now the term PCOD was introduced to me by everyone's friend THE GOOGLE.

I was getting really stressed ,next year I will be going to college and nobody will  befriend me. I will be the ugly duckling. So I started researching about the reasons for my acne and I came across the term PCOD. And wow!!! now I really know why I had my irregular periods and the physical imperfections after these many years.

So Now I told my Mother and she said 'Oh then why didn't the doctors tell us when we visited them'.

AND SERIOUSLY  I DIDN'T KNOW WHY.

Finally I went to a doctor ,told my concerns and I was suggested some hormonal tablets to get my periods regular and a cream for my acne. 

Now I was happy, my period has become regular and my acne was getting better. 

But slowly I realized this is not going anywhere. I had regular periods only when I took tablets and something more serious was happening. I was having some serious mood swings, crying without reason ,getting angry for petty thing, waking at middle of night and crying. I was depressed.

I still do not understand ,why I had to go through this. I had a happy family, no financial problems, no struggles and some friends. What else you need?

But fortunately or unfortunately ,nobody around me understood or guessed what I was going through.

So finally I assumed its because of the tablets which I am taking and I decided to stop it. And to surprise I was feeling better and less stressed out ,though periods became irregular again. I let it go.

Now didn't took it even after my marriage but slowly a fear crept coming. What if I  didn't conceive?

And I wanted a permanent solution. I didn't wanted to go back to the tablets so I decided to seek help from Ayurveda. So I told my mother in law and she suggested the Ramdev medicines for PCOS..

We fixed a date ,went to their store and they gave  a long list of roots ,powders to make decoctions and they also gave a LIST OF YOGA  ASANAS- LIKE SURYANAMSKAR , PRABAYAM, BUTTERFLY.

So at first I didn't get how these yoga asanas  are going to cure my PCODS. But I wanted a solutions to try and ya, I saw some changes. I saw it becoming regular. For 6 months I  continued it but then I moved to UAE, where these medicines are not available though I continued those exercises and asanas.

Actually I don't know what was the role of the medicine in this  but the exercise(specially the butterfly and walking)  really helped. When I did it I had my periods regular. 

So  I found that to keep PCODS in control two things are very important

1. STRESS FREE MIND AND BODY(Don't think about it, just ignore it, don't give much importance to your problem and give your attention to the solution)
2. EXERCISE- Continuity is important

I have a baby now ,she is 2 years old though I had PCOD. So I think OVERTHINKING of the problem  is the  cause for MOST THE PROBLEMS.

 Stay blessed

HOW NOT TO BE LAZY-ONE SINGLE EASY EFFECTIVE WAY

 THE MAGIC NUMBERS 1,2.....5

If you find it difficult to get out of your bed ,and find yourself doing the daily tasks, then this might help you.

Because  I have tried almost all the tips available in the internet but I found this method  really helpful. 

This is basically a way to fool your mind.

You must have noticed that whenever you plan to do a work/task, your mind immediately starts giving you some  suggestions like we will do later in the evening, to snooze the alarm , to postpone the cleaning routine.

These are the negative thoughts which pull you back. 

In this method ,what you have to do this ,whenever you think or plan to do a task ,next second start counting 1,2,3,4,5 and at 5 get up. So this method of 'The magic numbers'  does not give your mind the time to think any nonsense. So basically you are fooling the mind.

You can start this from your bed when your alarm goes off, count the magic numbers and at at 5 get up. 

Now it depends upon you not to find any excuse to count the numbers.

AN UNKNOWN FRIEND

To you.....From an Unknown friend

Yesterday morning  I woke up to a really bad news, I was shook from my head to toe.

I was swearing ,when my husband asked what happened.

I just showed him my wats app message, I was not in a state to explain nor to believe it. It took me a couple of minutes to come back.

Yes its her , I have seen her at school and talked too. But the news is really really bad ,she has been passed away yesterday. She was admitted in hospital due to corona for weeks.

It was really shocking to me though I  barely know her. I know her as colleague and I always  admired her for her personality. I saw her first when we had to stay back after the class for some work. She was busy in making some chart works. I still remember ,she made some beautiful cartoons and drawings.

I sat there watching her.

And always wanted to talk to her but didn't  know her name  and was embarrassed too.
So when  I heard she was admitted in hospital, with all my heart I prayed and after 2 weeks I got the news she is recovering. I said ya prayer has been heard.
But who knows it was the light before emptiness.

I feel guilty that I didn't pray enough because I have read somewhere that if your prayers or thoughts are strong then it creates a stream of energy which brings you what you desire. Its not spiritual ,its science of law of attraction. It reminds me  how short can be our life. 

She was young, ambitious, beautiful and had lot of dreams. 

I want to tell you only one thing "Even though you didn't know me, you have created a void in my life."

We will miss you

Your Unknown friend.